Frustrations!

Am I too picky? Are my expectations too high for myself that it is not unattainable? Should I settle for less just so I can say at least I have it or should I still aim high and hope something works out sooner than later although sooner seems to be later these days. I keep hearing this over and over and over again, " At least its better than nothing" " You have to start somewhere" I know! I Know!! But honestly why should I settle for less if I can have it all? It might take me a little longer but I will get there!

Here is what I believe. I graduated from high school almost 8 years ago, with good grades,Got me into University, did alright there and graduated with honors...4 years ago. I up and moved to the States, Didnt have the greatest job in the world but it was better than nothing and now I am back here with some experience under my belt. Maybe not the best of experience but enough to put me one step ahead of the high schoolers and university students. I am going back to school in the fall to get a certificate which will make me even more marketable and need I say qualified for even a better job. I haven't worked in 7 months, I know people who havent worked in a year but then all I get are rejection letters upon rejection letters...bills need to be paid and they are being paid but at the bare minimum...Fortunately I have great parents that understand my struggle and are willing to help me till I can do it on my own. At 27 I really dont want their help but unfortunately I need their help. I pray its not forever but right now who knows when forever will end.

However, It may seem like I am too proud, or I feel I am better than others but I believe that after paying 10s of thousands of dollars to get a university degree, even more to pay for a year of an mba and going to invest a little big more to get a certificate, I should not have to settle for a job, flipping burgers, or running groceries through a register or telling young teenagers that they should choose the blue top over the yellow top even though I know well and well they are going to chose both because daddy is paying just so i can say I have a pay check coming in! Dont get me wrong, I am not waiting for a job in my field before I accept a position or I am not waiting for a 6 figure job before I get back in the work field but I still do not think I should lower my standards just so I can have a pay check, A pay check that I will never see because, 3/4 of it will go towards transportation to work, and the other 1/4 will go towards paying for my lunch or dinner when I am at work. I mean at the end is it worth it?

People keep saying ohh at least its a pay check at least you have a job, I mean it wont be forever so why dont you just do that until something else comes my way and I mean I could, but the question I ask these people( and I am sure they will lie because they dont have to worry about having to go through this) is " If you were in my shoes, will you flip burgers? or run groceries through a cash machine after working for at least 2 years in your field, making decent money just so you can say you have a job?" In my opinion if you do choose to do that, then I say, you dont think you deserve better and you dont think you will get better. Times are rough people are struggling, the job market is even more competitive than it used to be, but do you have to lower your standards drastically just to get a job? A job you will quit in a matter of days because you absolutely can't stand it even though you are getting a pay check? Seriously I want you to think long and hard before responding? I know your answer will be no in your head because I know a few people who are in my shoes struggling just like me and they feel the exact same way I do, They refuse to go for that minimum flipping burgers job because they believe they deserve better. Trust me if you go what we are going through you will do the same!

So please, I understand you are concerned about me and you want me to have a job, but dont tell me to lower my standards just to have one. I will take the receptionist job because through there I can be promoted to something else, or instead of the Business Analyst position I want, i will take the jr analyst position just to get my foot in that door I might even take the secretary job working for the president just so I can get my feet wet, I will even be the assistant manager at old navy but dont tell me to be at cash ringing stuff through the register or dont ask me to flip burgers. If you wouldnt do it, dont expect me to. And if you choose to do it, then thats on you...but I am not you!