I woke up

I woke up today. I had been living my life in a complete daze, coming and going following my very strict routine. I once ventured out, tried something new, I liked it but then I was too scared to continue it to the end so I came back. I really do not know why I did that, I guess the most obvious answer is fear but now I am curious to find out how it would have ended.

I believe my life has been already been laid out for me. I had a structured life. Had to follow the same path “normal people” followed because the results were always the same and secure but what if I went crazy for a little bit and went the opposite way? Would I fall off? Would I die? Or would I carry on? I am reading a very interesting book and although I am half way through, I feel like I am finally opening my eyes. It has me questioning a lot of things. For example? Who defined normal? Who said this way of life was normal? What if all the abnormal people were all normal and we were the crazy one?

The biggest question I always ask myself is, Had I done this instead of that? What would have happened? Don’t get me wrong, My life is alright, not the most exciting, not the best however its not bad but is this the life I want to lead? I don’t think so. I think its time I ventured out. Did what I want to do. Try new things, and not necessarily think of the consequences. In every situation there is always a 50/50 chance that it will or will not work but it all depends on how you look at the 50. Are you going to look at the 50 that it will work or you going to look at the 50 that it wont work. I think generally most people especially myself look at the 50 that it wont work. Now its time that we look at the 50 that it will work.

So what if it doesn’t work? You pick up and start again. And you keep trying till you have no tries left but until you have no tries left you keep going. I think I am going tolive my life the way I want to live it. Take risk, fail and try again The safe route is no longer an option. I woke up this morning. Not in the literal sense but in the figurative sense and I already like what I see.